I've been writing my dissertation. It's a creative writing dissertation. I'm writing a play. It's a comedy about three men who kidnap their local MP. What I have learned from doing this is that writing a play is actually really fucking difficult. Every single word I write sounds unconvincing and stale. I didn't think this would be a problem as normally I am told that my ability to write dialogue is rather good, some even say it is one of my strongest points.
I just had to lick Ribena off my laptop keyboard. It tasted like hot pebbles.
But no, turns out that writing a play is an entirely different beast. Dialogue that would be fine in a story, is often awful in a play. You have to almost completely rethink what it is that dialogue is actually doing, and it seems virtually impossible to write good play dialogue the more I try it.
But my tutor likes my ideas. Which is good.
But I have no idea what I'm going to do for my essay.
And every bit of work I do on my play/dissertation creates about three times as much work still to do.
And I have just over three weeks now to get it all done.
Which is nowhere near enough time to get everything done to a good standard.
I'm totally screwed and will probably end up only getting a 2:2 now.
(I am borderline 2:1 at the moment because I am really shit at writing essays.)
If I don't get a 2:1, I will hate myself. I will see myself as a failure.
I am competing in the Hammer & Tongue Oxford Slam Poetry Final next week. I am crapping myself even more than I normally would be due to the fact that Simon Munnery is headlining the event. Simon Munnery is one of my favourite comedians.
I am writing a poem for someone to use in an art project they are doing. It's an awesome idea, but I've gone for something stylistically different to what I normally do and I have no idea if what I'm doing is any good or not.
And I've just been asked to be involved in something I can't tell you about yet. It's a fairly small thing, but it's quite exciting and I'm looking forward to it. It's gonna be happening after all this other stuff is done too, so I'll actually be able to enjoy it.
Whereas right now, I'm going "AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!" quite a lot.